Summary from Goodreads: Award-winning New York City Ballet soloist Georgina Pazcoguin, aka the Rogue Ballerina, gives readers a backstage tour of the real world of elite ballet—the gritty, hilarious, sometimes shocking truth you don’t see from the orchestra circle.
Swan Dive pitches us into the fascinating, dizzying lives of the dancers in one of the most revered ballet companies in the world. Georgina Pazcoguin, the New York City Ballet’s first Asian American soloist, tells her unfiltered story of leaving small-town Pennsylvania for New York City and training as a professional athlete, miles away from her parents, before finishing high school.
Rocked by scandal in the wake of the #MeToo movement, NYCB sits at an inflection point, inching toward progress in a strictly traditional culture, and Pazcoguin doesn’t shy away from ballet’s dark side. She continues to be one of the few dancers openly speaking up against the sexual harassment, mental abuse, and racism that in the past went unrecognized or was tacitly accepted as par for the course—all of which she has painfully experienced firsthand.
But along with her desire for justice and a deep respect for her craft, Pazcoguin has an unapologetic sense of humor about the cutthroat, literally survival-of-the-fittest culture of ballet. She relishes telling us about the torture (but economic necessity) that is the holiday “Nutbuster” season and holds nothing back in relaying the face-plants, backstage fights, and raucous company bonding sessions. You’ll never see a ballerina, or a ballet, the same way again.
Swan Dive is a really good memoir about being a biracial Filipina ballet dancer at New York City Ballet and what she experienced in pursuit of the art form she loves. She describes microaggressions, macroaggressions, fat shaming, verbal and psychological abuse from the artistic director at NYCB (although he’s no longer there, Peter Martins casts a very long shadow by having casting control over ballets he created), and sexual harassment from colleagues (one of whom will get a glowing retirement performance this fall). Gina does not pull her punches in this book and at times it is hard to read her experience (a, because it’s painful, and b, it made me really mad). She’s a born storyteller, though, and I just flew through the book. In between the “memoir” chapters are short “Swan Dive” chapters – times when she took a big fall, and often is able to laugh about it later.
I do wish that she talked a bit more about the decision to start Final Bow for Yellowface. She does mention it in part of discussing the built-in Orientalism/Yellowface of the Nutcracker but I think some more information about her work with Phil Chan and how the organization works would have been good (they do have a book though: Final Bow for Yellowface). But that’s a very minor thing.
Swan Dive is out July 26!
Dear FTC: I read a digital galley of this book from the publisher via Edelweiss.